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Badassery!

Well, hello there. It’s been awhile. Happy New Year.

My last post was at the end of April last year when I was pretty pissed off about gaining back weight and feeling like a complete failure. “I need to fucking do this,” I wrote.

I’m happy to report that I am indeed doing it.

I weighed myself this morning at just over 308 lbs, which is 47 lbs lighter than I was when I wrote the article. I’d be even lighter, except that Christmas happened and I had a bit of a slide into old habits. That’s ok. I’m back on track again now, which is practically a miracle considering that I typically wallow in self loathing and eat everything in sight when I fall off the rails. Train metaphors rock.

So what the hell happened, you wonder?

I really was fed up last April, perhaps more than I’d been in a long time. I mentioned I’d started seeing a new doctor, and his referrals to other support systems were helpful. I also went to England in May, where I spent much of my time walking in Wiltshire with a pair of lovely terriers and cleaning up after two sweet little ponies who, might I add, seemed to crap enough for twelve Clydesdales. I dropped about 10 pounds right there, and with that initial boost, I was pretty much radiating motivation.

The online community support group continued (and still does!) to help me stay focused. My doctor referred me to a weight loss clinic where I’m seeing a weight loss doctor, a psychologist, and a dietitian. I didn’t think the dietitian would help too much as I’m pretty savvy about nutrition, but she made some suggestions that have been critical for me.

I attended a four week program called Craving Change which focused on the emotional side of eating. There wasn’t much that I didn’t already know or consider, but the discussions certainly helped with my motivation.

Finally, I started working with a new trainer whom I absolutely adore. He’s experienced, knowledgeable, and makes me feel as though he cares that I succeed. Even more motivation!

So there we are – I’ve made progress. I still have a long way to go, and I’m struggling a little bit now with maintaining my focus, but I feel very optimistic. Yay me!